My cup is empty.
The suffering of yesterday is too heavy, combined with the pain of today. I wake up empty, my strength failing before my feet hit the floor. I struggle through each day feeling worthless and ugly inside and out; forgetting His Truth and remembering their lies. I approach the world hiding. Hiding behind a smile, the silent desperation of feeling surrounded and alone all at once.
This morning, I considered not getting out of bed at all. Then I remembered something I’d read to my children last night:
“God breathed life into Adam and Eve. When they opened their eyes, the first thing they ever saw was God’s face.
And when God saw them he was like a new dad. ‘You look like me,’ he said. ‘You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever made!’
God loved them with all of his heart. And they were lovely because he loved them.”
-The Jesus Storybook Bible
They were lovely because He loved them.
We are lovely because He loves us.
His love knows no end. It’s fierce. It’s unfailing and absolute. This means our loveliness is absolute. Our worth is absolute. Our value is not determined by past or present hurts, past or present sins…past or present perceptions.
This feeling of empty doesn’t have to win. It doesn’t have to overwhelm and deaden us on the inside.
It doesn’t have to exist.
Hold fast to what is true. To what is real and bright. To the lovely, not the empty. This is who we are. Lovely…and loved. Let that fill your cup.